Saturday, September 12, 2009
Sleeping Badly – Part 2
Last night was not a good night for sleeping. It was hot. There was a great deal of sweating, but not the fun kind. There were a lot of nightmares. It was like a horror movie marathon, one after another. My wife has gotten used to me waking up intermittently, yelling and/or hyperventilating. She used to ask me if I was okay. Now she just rolls over. It’s not that she’s insensitive. It’s that she’s just accepted that there’s nothing she can do to help. The only thing there is to do is endure them. I can rarely recall any details when I wake up. Rarely do I get any keepers out of my dreams. I just remember the emotionally painful, bad sleep. I’m so goddamn stupid, I can’t even sleep correctly.